The benefit has been such a beautiful way to make this something positive to focus my energy on. I am so grateful that it has allowed me the opportunity to dive my creative juices into something I am so passionate about. I have been very busy creating materials and can't wait to share it with you! My goal is to have everything live by Friday evening. GO GO GO GO!
Just last night Matt and I were talking about the trip to Dallas to meet Dr. Fearon. Suddenly like a brick to the head I realized that is next Sunday! WHAT! How did that happen? Normally I would have a notebook full of lists right now. That's how I cope with stress. Lists, lists, lists, and lists of my lists. Yes, if you haven't realized it by now I can be neurotic. Hey, we all have our crazy somewhere hidden deep down. You do a blog and you will learn that about yourself too. LOL.
I am so grateful right now that I have kept so busy... too busy to realize the days slipping away until going to Dallas, and later leading up to surgery. I am happy I have been living in the moment with the baby since these days really do slip away way too fast. Everyday I can see him grow up a little more and more. They should call it the speed of life instead of the speed of light. I just want a pause button sometimes to hold on to the moment. Thank God for the video camera ;)
I'm not sure what to expect on how I will feel once we reach Dallas. I am sure it will be a mix of emotions. Thinking about it puts a pit in my throat. But I just pray that meeting the doctor will give us some peace with our near future. The scariest thing is always the unknown right? Or is it that ignorance is bliss? I think its a little of both and so this will be too.
Wish us luck and stay tuned for all the Chicks Dig Scars materials coming soon to a computer near you!